Sunday, November 12, 2006

inspired

Right after I wrote my last post J-Dog took M to the park and to ride a train and left me alone in the house for a few hours. I realized in that moment how lucky I am, and how blessed. And how rich life is. A father who loves to spend time with his daughter. A daugher that never, ever fails to throw herself in my arms screeching mama, grin as wide as the sun.

I've reflected on my posts lately, and yes, something is trying to come out. And it'll make it's way. But it's easy to push aside the joy, the most simple and beautiful joys that come from each and every day. Metro Mama posted about this, and it inspired me and the truth was blinding.

It's often easier to sink than rise. Gravity, be damned. Sometimes we need to stop looking and just enjoy the view.

What was the grace and light in your world today?

Mine was when I noticed M trying to imitate me in the mirror - she reached up and patted her hair and tossed her head (who's the vain mum here?) I hadn't even realized I'd done it till she did it too and then looked up at me, grinning ear to ear, saying "like mama, like mama".

I gobbled that up and am entirely full.

20 comments:

Lucia said...

One of my favorite song lines in a tune John Mayer does is "Gravity, stay the hell away from me."

Anonymous said...

It is so easy to get weighed down. I, too, had a moment of lightness last night. I was nuzzled in my husband's arms, and then the babe woke up, and I nuzzled him in my arms. I felt so cohesive and connected to my family.

Anonymous said...

Well.....the alarm went off at 7 o'clock and my husband reached for me. which was delightful, except that a few minutes later I had to say "I'm awfully sorry, I've got to go." because I had to be elsewhere at 7.30. Huh. Paradise postponed.

Usually, it's my granddaughter's face lighting up when she sees me, or when she looks for me and shouts "Heyyo!!"

If there's one thing I've learned in the last few years, it is to take all the joy that there is in the everyday.

meno said...

It's at these times when you realize that your child is WATCHING everything you do. Everything. It's a sweet honor and a heavy responsibility.

Thailand Gal said...

Moment of grace and inspiration. Hm. I would say it was this morning when I went down the street to get my coffee and buy an English muffin. I watched a couple of young people bring their elderly relative in for breakfast. They were so kind and attentive.

Yehm. I guess that would be it. :)

Anonymous said...

for me, i have a new friend who has lifted my spirits hugely. we sit and chat most days. its not often you meet someone who has been through stuff that rings so many bells with you - i often have to censor the narrative of my life in case people think i'm making it up...

Momish said...

My daughter has been sick for the past three days. We have had some rough nights, up several times, etc. This morning when she woke up, I got her and brought her back into our bed. We all snuggled and cuddled for another hour of fantastic sleep. Weekends always lift my spirits, especially long mornings being lazy in bed!

Anonymous said...

Carrying my sleepy daughter out of the car after we had been shopping.

She had her face buried in my neck and would just give these cute little muttered answers to my questions.

Regenerates you.

I am waiting for my son to come home now...he has been with nana all day......he is always happy to see me...I love that.

Oh and that a writer blogger dude asked me to take part in a creative writing exercise... I was really flattered.

ECR said...

I guess my moment was today when The Boss was walking around the book fair all by herself. She'd do laps around various tables as I picked up books and tried to speed read their jackets before she got to the other side of the room. She only started walking a couple weeks ago, and it amazes me to see her making her own way in different spaces.

KC said...

Oh, Jen. I'm happy to hear you have found some inspiration that lifted your spirits. I read your earlier post and was thinking about you today.

For me, today, it was sitting down with my resident and exchanging feedback about how her month went working under my supervision. We talked about the struggles of caring for ill and dying patients, of respecting and preserving dignity and involving families at every step of the way. She told me I was a role model. That she could tell I truly cared about our patients and each individual team member. How she felt respected and elevated by the responsibility I let her have.

It is words like these that fill me with happiness for what I do. I love my job.

Little Miss said...

well first, a blog is a place to vent--naturally those things you're dying to get off your chest pop up first. We all do it, so don't beat yourself up.

and second, my happy moment today was lying in bed with my sick child while she spoke to me in a raspy voice about how she had named all the twisty metal parts of her headboard, complete with families and stories. I loved it. It made me think of a time when my imagination used to be as strong as hers.

flutter said...

Words from someone utterly unexpected. Made me smile all day.

Anonymous said...

When my little one walked five steps unassisted with open arms saying "MAMA!"

Anonymous said...

So glad you are out of your previous mode - for me, nothing too spectacular-I made a shopping list last night and this morning saw that the BF had added some items to it, and some of them were things of mine he had noticed I was running low on.

A nice warm and fuzzy moment all to myself.

Anonymous said...

The huge smile that my son gave me this morning when I went down to say 'Good Morning'to him and take him up to my room to snuggle for a bit.

Mrs. Chicky said...

I love it when my daughter plays the role of the clown just to make me laugh. She has this uncanny knack of finding the humor in things, and she's barely 19 months old. We're always coming up with new things to laugh about together.

Susan as herself said...

Lovely images in that post.

You visted my blog so I thought I'd visit yours. :)

I feel happy and mysteriously "connected to everything" whenever I see a cat. Go figure.

Rock the Cradle said...

The Impling absently singing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and the ABC song while carefully scraping frosting and colored sprinkles off her cupcake with one finger.

Penny said...

so sweet.

Our babies are so sweet to us, it makes a bad day absolutely perfect.

ecm said...

I went to yoga tonight and you're supposed to rise up and ground down at the same time...just like the contrasts of life. Maybe it's just the tension part of life.