Monday, July 30, 2007

(otherwise known as my last blogher post)

Taking one dimension and adding two more created a roller coaster of giddy, irreverent, joyous and cantankerous feelings over the past three days and as I sat exhausted, dehydrated and yes, lonely in the early morning airport hours all I could think was how lucky I am.

I met amazing women this weekend, women I cried with, shared incredibly important memories with, flirted with, and connected with. I had the honor of wandering the streets of Chicago with three extraordinary women and we all fell into a bit of magic along the way. Palms were read and truths were spilled onto the sidewalk. I had the immense joy of sitting around a bar with most of Mommy Bloggers Toronto and I might attest that a room had never felt so bright. I got to hug and connect with old and new friends and realize there was never quite enough time to feel like it was enough. I spent a balmy outdoor night learning more about a wild woman's heart. And I shared a room and much of the weekend with two of the most beautiful women in the world who welcomed me with open arms and open hearts from the moment we said hello.

I know there will be a lot of Blogher posts floating around this week and I sit here slightly torn about how to express the joy without shutting the door on those who couldn't come. I realized that not talking about it would be doing such an injustice to the women I met and talking about it too much would do the same to the ones I hope I get to meet in the future. But it's an example of what exists through blogging. Opening our eyes and hearts to those we'd never run across otherwise and how much I'd be missing out on if not for all of you.

That didn't mean there weren't rough moments; awkward passings and a stumbling of words. Of not knowing how to react in large groups or how to jump through the veil of small talk into the deep emotions we so freely toss around while safely behind our computers. But even in those moments I learned about myself and the romanticizing I've done about how easy it would be to blur those borders and I decided I am okay with that too.

But mostly I felt like I'd have loved to have the weekend last just a bit longer. But what joy was on the other end of my arrival, toddler legs around my waist and a gorgeous hunk of a man who not only kept my child alive but cleaned the house and grocery shopped to boot.

35 comments:

metro mama said...

Dude. I don't have words.

slouching mom said...

Lovely post, Jen. You articulated so sweetly and sensitively how it felt to be there. And yes, we do toss around our emotions rather freely when blogging, don't we?!

Julie Pippert said...

The truth is...

Last year the posts felt annoying to me.

This year, I desperately seek them out, even googling to find photo shows (thanks Mary Tsao for a great one!).

This is because bloggers I really care about went, and I am eager to hear their stories and impressions.

I think of you guys as friends, and I'm so glad you got to be together. I crave hearing about it.

I can't explain it other than I'm possibly happier for you than I am sad for me. :)

So thanks for sharing your experience.

Hel said...

Although I wish I could have been there (oh so very, very much) reading your post made me feel happy in a strange way.

Sandra said...

Yes. You said what I can't.

Am so profoundly grateful to have had the chance to finally meet you in person and sit next to the wonderfulness that is Jen. I wish we had more time. Much more time.

Big love to you hott lady.

nomotherearth said...

Sounds wonderful. Wish I could have been there.

thailandchani said...

I was concerned about how the dynamic might shift as a result of this mass meeting. You know, would those of us who didn't go be relegated to the sidelines as those who have met would become a "city within a city" ...

Truthfully, I haven't found that to be the case. The posts I've read so far are very inclusive, wanting to share the experience with the rest of us.

If it becomes cloying, I'm sure those who know me know I'll speak up about it. :)

So far, all is good.. and I am enjoying the posts about it.


Peace,

~Chani

mitzh said...

It sounds perfect and so wonderful.

liv said...

I had the privilege talking to some gals from their Chicago hotel room, and we made some *cool* decisions. I hope to clue you in over the course of the next few months!

There are not too many gals that I'm just eating my heart out over not getting to meet, but you are definitely one of them!

kgirl said...

Please leave that door open! The only thing worse than not being there, is not being there and the thought of having to imagine what all you lovelies are really like because nobody wants to post!

Orangeblossoms said...

Wish we all could have shared in it.... Thanks for opening the door to the real-time world of women who blog. (sounds like a PBS documentary!) Your blog, Jen, is such a breath of warmth and community and care. As always, you rock!

flutter said...

Glad you got to go, I missed not joining hands with you all. I am glad you are home safe.

((you))

mayberry said...

Thank you -- I am struggling with the same thing. How possibly to sum up, and how to do it graciously.

And wondering how it was that our paths never crossed! I promise I looked for you.

Momish said...

I can only imagine how difficult it would be to put such experiences and emotions into words. Yet, you were able to do so. I hope I get to make it to BlogHer next year and meet all these wonderful women you speak of and you too, of course.

kristen said...

You've summed it up so eloquently here Jen, it was a great time. I love and miss you my friend. xo

Deezee said...

I welcome the reflection on the weekend and by no means feel excluded. What better way than by sharing your experiences can those of us who didn't attend get a chance to decide if we'd like to go in the future?

I think of it like hearing of any other kind of adventure...an opportunity to gnaw on someone else's experience. Please share.

PunditMom said...

You've so eloquently captured many of my own thoughts about the weekend. It can be so inspiring, yet sometimes terrifying, to be in the presence of so many amazing women. I'm so glad I got to meet you.

Lawyer Mama said...

I know how you feel. I'm sort of struggling with how much to say as well. Overall, it was wonderful. I just wish I'd had more time to really connect with people aside from small talk and dinner chat.

It was fabulous meeting you. I think I was worried most about meeting you. I had worried that you couldn't possibly be what you are online. But you are.

Lillithmother said...

I'm drinking it all in sister 'cause I'm one of the ones that wanted to be there...and meet heart to heart all whom I've come to call "my blog friends"...

So write on...and thank you for considering our feelings, it's soooo you!

Luv Lil

Beck said...

It sounds like it was SUCH a great time, and in many ways I wish I could have gone - but it was too, too far away for me. So I'm glad to live vicariously through you and your fellow attendees.

Kyla said...

Dude, yes. ;)

Amazing women. Amazing conversation. Amazing memories. I wish it could have been a bit longer as well. I feel a wee bit homesick for you all now, in inexplicable sort of way.

QT said...

The weekend was like the constant gush from a fire hydrant, impossible not to spill any, miss any, moments. Crushes on the Canadians aside. :)

It was great to finally meet you, friend.

Christine said...

do you know how wonderful you are?

i so wish i was there, and i admit the posts are bit bitter sweet, like i missed the boat and the fun. but i also want to gobble them up and see the pictures and rejoice with you all, too. your post made me smile and my heart sing.

meno said...

Perfectly put Jen. I too struggled with how to say SO MUCH when there are no words.

I am glad to have met you.

Aliki2006 said...

Thank you SO much for sharing the weekend with us, for letting the joy and passion of that experience chine through in your writing. I hope so hard that I get to go next time...but it was wonderful to share it with you through your words.

alejna said...

I'm also glad you've shared your experiences. It didn't seem at all feasible for me to go this year, and it's so great to hear about some of what went on. (I'm still very curious. Too bad you say it's your last blogher post! I'd be up for more...)

KC said...

fun times, jen, fun times. You said it so well. Miss you. xo

Ruth Dynamite said...

Yes yes and yes.

It was a pleasure meeting you, Jen.

Her Bad Mother said...

That I didn't get to have, oh, hours and hours sitting down with and getting more of your heart and brain is one of my biggest regrets.

But I did hug you and touch you and got to see that you are as lovely and wonderful in person as in words and that will have to do for now. xoxo

Susanne said...

Like Julie Pippert said, I too am actively looking around to hear more of the conference. I'm not said that I didn't go. I'm said that I didn't have the chance of meeting a couple of my favorite bloggers but then I'm exceptionally grateful for having at least the chance to meet you on-line.

Jenny said...

I don't have to write this post because you just did. Like it was ladeled right from my muddled thoughts.

I can't believe I only had a few words with you! I kept thinking there would be more time but it was such a wirlwind!

Next time?

Mom101 said...

This is beautiful. I think you summed it up perfectly - except for the part about the weekend lasting longer. Me, I'm fried.

Eve said...

You were there and I didn't meet you? Okay now I'm bummed...

PunditMom said...

As I've been thinking about this, I think I would have enjoyed the weekend more if I had had more experiences like you describe. I felt like I should be the "good girl" and attend sessions both days. But as a result, I met lots of women, but don't feel like I made as many real connections as I wanted. You and I need a real conversation over some wine, my friend.

Nancy said...

I'm not sure how I missed you, but I'm sorry we didn't get to connect in person. Maybe another time?