Friday, January 18, 2008

quiet

for the first time in perhaps a year and a half, i have very little to say. there is nothing particularly wrong, i am a bit sick, but it's really nothing but a cold. i don't have anything funny to report, no stories of tragedy, no endless musings to share. i can't muster up the energy to talk politics or social woes, or even kid stories. i am simply out of words.

i expect it will change, maybe even soon. but as i sit here now and have sat here earlier, eyes squinting at the screen i come up empty. i expect it to pass, i am sure it's a phase. but it's odd, this lack of words thing. i am somehow at a loss.

and on top of it my reader is fuckered up. my computer crashes every time i access it, i can't see your new posts and can only find you by my extremely outdated blogroll or by following your comments. and even then i feel silent. i am watching and yet not speaking. it's an interesting feeling, this way i feel. out of character, one might say. and yet it's sitting here with me and so perhaps i should honor it.

i'll most certainly be back as soon as i've got something to say.

39 comments:

hele said...

I have been feeling a silence too. Like my words are dragging their feet while my dreams are flying ahead.

I'm happy to sit with you and listen to the silence.

Jocelyn said...

Indeed, honor it. It's an important thing, a silence within. It'll probably make you better able to listen and understand something.

But follow my comment and read my post, will you? I don't usually ask that of anyone. But I'd like you to read this one. (no need to comment!)

bubandpie said...

I've felt that for about a month now, at least. It's starting to list now, finally. It's a strange sensation - quiet just doesn't seem to be me somehow.

cinnamon gurl said...

I've been feeling it off and on for six months or more... it is disconcerting, but it passes, usually.

slouching mom said...

definitely honor it -- otherwise writing becomes just another chore.

xxoo

Jodi said...

i hit these bouts of silence more than not. i've only been blogging for a few months and have already taken several breaks....

Omaha Mama said...

I think writing and creativity are cyclical (although for me, typically on a monthly cycle ruled by my uterus). I also think that January causes us all to hibernate, no matter where we live. Take a rest. Reflect internally. Looking forward to what is next.

Amy Y said...

I agree with SM.
And if it makes you feel any better, this seems to be going around a bit...
See you on the flip side ;)

thailandchani said...

It seems to be contagious. I've been that way for the past few months.

You blog nearly every day... It's possible you're just burning out on *every day*.

Now that I'm doing it maybe three times a week, I don't feel the burden of it.

mamatulip said...

Definitely honour it. Put it on, wear it for a little while, and then before you know it, you'll begin to shed it.

Magpie said...

just when i think i have nothing to say, all kinds of drivel starts pouring out. it ebbs and flows.

wheelsonthebus said...

Take a break. We'll be here.

Emily

meno said...

Let go of the desire to have something to say, and then you will find you do.

I think i must be a Buddist.

mitzh said...

I have those moments, and they're quite beautiful, even priceless at times.

Take your time, surely it will pass...

And we'll always be here waiting..

Redneck Mommy said...

I'll be here when your words come back. Until then, much love my friend.

Tabba said...

i feel ya, sister. and i hear it in others. honor it, for sure. take your time. we'll all be here in one way or another...

flutter said...

and we will, too

Anonymous said...

Come say something to me! I wrote a post over at the silent k about polyamory, and wouldn't have dine it without your prompting probably... come see. (from the silent k)

Aliki2006 said...

Enjoy your quiet space--we'll be here.

QT said...

It is definitely going around. I agree with whoever said don't let it become a chore - this is a creative space, and there will be ebbs and flows. {hugs}

painted maypole said...

its often best to wait until you are ready to speak. it's all good. ;)

carrie said...

Nothing wrong with being quiet.

Oh, The Joys said...

Quiet? What's that?

Heh.

(I live with The Mayor.)

Emily said...

Quiet is good.

Hopefully it's peaceful...and peace is a lovely houseguest.

Kyla said...

I've been there. Just roll with it, you'll be back soon enough.

ewe are here said...

Honor the need to be quiet. To do nothing. To just be.

We all need to do so from time to time.

Mrs. Chicky said...

Feel better, hon.

But this might be karma for laughing at my cold weather and flaunting your flip flops.

Mad Hatter said...

Ebb and flow, babe. Ebb and flow. It will come back when it's ready.

crazymumma said...

Oh hon. Do I ever know what you are talking about.
I am not even out reading all that much.
Quiet is good.

xo

FENICLE said...

Everyone has those days...uh, weeks....ok, it's been months.

Cheer up :)

Family Adventure said...

It's the time of year...I'm sure of it.

Heidi

hele said...

I just came past for a quick hug and to invite your spirit on a walk through my favorite field with me.

Bring a raincoat.

bgirl said...

honor the unknown, sit with it in silence or in thought, either way how can't that be right.

Wayfarer Scientista said...

Ah, me-thinks this means that the Lost Wages trip was a great success and you are at ease. Enjoy it, the words will return, they always do.

alejna said...

Yes, I say honor it, too. I expect the words will come back sooner or later, and we'll all be happy to hear from you whenever that is.

I seem to be going through a lack of words, too. I have had to push myself extra hard to leave any comments at all. (Of course, I almost always have to push myself to comment at all.) And as for posting, well, you haven't really missed anything over at my place.

Jennifer said...

Silence can be wonderful. Enjoy it.

(And I still used the old click around my bookmarks to see any updates method. I like the surprise factor. Ha.)

JCK said...

Definitely honor the silence. You will return invigorated and refreshed. I do like how you wrote through your feeling of silence in this post. It is a great writer's strategy when one is feeling empty. Hope you are nurturing yourself this weekend.

The Chick said...

Right. There. With. You.

thordora said...

I feel like that almost daily. Mania takes it away. :)

We'll wait.