Monday, October 20, 2008

the flood, pt. 2

Try as I might, it's impossible to find any news on the flood. The village is too small, in these sorts of places tragedies happen all the time. People pull together without outside help. There is no FEMA, no emergency assistance. Folks who've been living there all their lives have seen their little homes ruined and there's no insurance money to claim. It'll take them years or longer to replace what they lost, the ones who had guest lodging on their land have lost their only income source, not only is tourism painfully down this year but the lodging will be unliveable for a long time.

Another of our soon to be neighbors called a little while ago. He wondered if we'd heard and we told him we had. Man, do we have a situation here, he said and yet his voice is smiling. J wants to know where everyone is, he can picture all of it in his mind. We are all sleeping at X's, his house is the one that hasn't flooded but the water's rising and it's about 8' away from the front door. I feel the urge to tell them to be careful but I know the words are silly, these folks know a thousand times more about what they'll need to do. In the midst of the call our friend says I can't get out to your land, the bridge is destroyed. As soon as I can I'll try and check on it for you. We tell him it's not important, we already know it's flooded and all that matters is that everyone is okay. He tells us again how crazy it all is and I hear his laugh. In the jungle I suppose, one has to figure out how to make due.

We sat in the park today while M ran around, the sun was hot and we were dry. J's face is tight, I know he's wishing he was there so he can see for himself. Our house would be gone. We can barely afford to do this once, there is no way we can do it twice. There's nothing to say and I'm reminded again that we don't know what we are doing and I wonder why that doesn't give me more pause.

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26 comments:

Ali said...

No-one knows what they are doing. People think they do, they plan their lives carefully but really unexpected stuff can happen to anyone at any time. I'm sure that it will all be okay.

painted maypole said...

the community you are going to sounds wonderful, and caring, and in places like that people pull together. they will make it alright. I think our lack of COMMUNITY in America is a huge problem (but those darn community organizers, I mean, wow, how lame are they? that's not REAL work or REAL experience.... ;)

Z said...

Those poor people, and you must feel so frustrated and helpless. I hope the damage is not so bad as it seems.

Her Grace said...

I'm pulling for you, Jen. For you, for your dream, for your future neighbors.

mamatulip said...

Wow, Jen. These last two posts have offered me a snapshot of a life I probably wouldn't have given much thought to.

Ally said...

Wow. How's that for a little perspective. What amazing neighbors, calling you to give you the news, promising to check on your place when they can. The love, the positive attitudes, the community. It's all so amazing, and appealing, that I can understand why this isn't giving you more pause. xoxox

Ally said...

Wow. How's that for a little perspective. What amazing neighbors, calling you to give you the news, promising to check on your place when they can. The love, the positive attitudes, the community. It's all so amazing, and appealing, that I can understand why this isn't giving you more pause. xoxox

Kyla said...

You guys are brave. I love that.

kristen said...

thinking of you three...
maybe you should come east, you know to clear your head and all. xo

Amy Y said...

Oh, dear. It sounds like you are going to be a part of a lovely community... I hope things dry out down there soon and that everyone's Ok!

Omaha Mama said...

I'm so sorry. It's so hard to take a risk like you guys have been planning. Then to have something like this happen.
I'm so sorry.

Gwen said...

oh, jen, I hope i's all okay.

QT said...

I would want to see it myself, too. And yes, the sense of community...what a nice change.

crazymumma said...

Have I said this to you yet? I don't remember. But it is one of my favorite things.

My friend, an actress describing going out on stage every night, always says, when one is about to do something risky.

she says.

Leap. and the net shall appear.

alejna said...

Wow. There is so much for you to deal with, so much to work out.

Somehow you'll manage.

Your neighbors, the community you are joining, sound amazing.

flutter said...

because when something is right, it's right

hele said...

Like everyone else I also believe you are doing the right thing.

And if you ever need anything, a place to stay, money, food, books, stuff or love send to the jungle we will be here for you.

This piece of writing was what finally gave me the courage to resign. I hope a bit of its magic rubs of for you too.

"Some of us are born with unrealizable and unattainable dreams. They push and pull our beings through life like a pack of wild dogs on the end of a hundred straining leashes. But just coming to realize that some of those dreams could be a reality can be the first big step in a person coming of age. Then comes an even scarier part, where those subtle voices that emanate from hidden pockets in the universe all around, ask you to step of cliffs!


Having the guts to do so may be the biggest test of all. It seems that everywhere some of us look we see hints and signs of a better way. A way that is however contrary to the accepted "belief system". Many and even most of your family and friends will contend that the safe course lies with the herd. "Security" is coveted like a Olympic flame and carried aloft for all to see. "Conventionality" has become societies mantra scratched deep and hard into stone.


There are a few pioneers however. Souls who feel the pull of the cliff's edge more keenly and when no one is looking, leap off, falling, falling. It is the most free they will ever feel. But don't search for their remains there amongst the boulders below, because the very faith that convinced them to jump from that precipice, quietly caught them half way down and took them to a whole new place.


A new world bright with endless possibility. A land where fear is welcomed and walked into rather than avoided. These people discover an unknown secret about life and are forever changed. Some have become legends. Some simply die."
Radical simplicity - Dan Price, http://www.moonlight-chronicles.com/

Jennifer said...

Oh, man, oh man, oh, man.

I'm sorry to hear this, all the way around. So sorry.

But as for you and your little family. You see light shining, you see possibility, you live looking outward and forward and you let hope keep burning. That's why, friend, you're going forward with this. That's why you're such an inspiration.

patches said...

Damn. I am so sorry..Maybe this is just a cosmic eye opener preparing you mentally for the different adversities you could face.

The news sucks. When Hollywood becomes news, and news involving genuine need is sidelined to accommodate entertainment, it disgusts me.

ewe are here said...

Your house may have taken a bit of a hit, but if it had to happen, you've picked the ideal place. Sounds like a wonderful group of future neighbors...

mitzh said...

I think you have a wonderful neighbors there. Sometimes, life can play a joke on you but with it comes a beautiful blessing as well.

motherbumper said...

I can only imagine the feeling of out of control, only imagine. Damn girl, I wish I could change that for you, I really do.

Bon said...

it's got to be a bit surreal, Jen...and i so hope the flood recedes and you get good news soon. your friends there sound like real neighbours, good people.

Beck said...

Even if your house is soggy, your neighbours-to-be sound great. I hope they're all safe.

bgirl said...

nobody knows what the hell we are doing from moment to moment, we just keep doing. location creates a false sense of security, it makes us *think* we know what we're doing because we have all these material reminders. you are living jen, really living and that is all the security we can ask for.

Janet said...

Hoping, wishing that everything will be okay. For you and your lovely neighbours-in-waiting.